REALLY COMPLICATED

YESTERDAY BRYCE ASKED ME OUT. HE TOLD ME TO MEET HIM AT THE CINEMA AT 6. I WAS THERE ON TIME. HE NEVER REALLY COME. I WAITED FOR 4 HOURS AND HE DIDN'T EVEN TEXTED ME THAT HE CAN'T COME BUT NOT TELLING ME OR TEXTING ME OR CALLING ME ABOUT NOT COMING TO OUR DATE. I THINK WE ARE COMPLICATED.

DOUBTFUL

I THINK  BRYCE IS HESITATING ABOUT OUR RELATIONSHIP. HIS FRIENDS ARE HAVING A PARTY BUT HE DOESN'T WANT TO GO. I REALLY REALLY WANT TO GO. I THINK HE DIDN'T TOLD HIS FRIENDS ABOUT US. LIKE HE IS ASHAMED ABOUT US BEING TOGETHER. IF HE IS ASHAMED FOR BEING TOGETHER THEN WHY DID HE ASKED ME TO BE HIS GIRLFRIEND. HE IS SO STUPID ABOUT IT. I WANT A GUY WHO WILL LIKE FOR WHO I AM. AND WHO DOESN'T HIDE ME TO HIS FRIENDS. WHAT AM I GOING TO DO WITH HIM ? PLEASE HELP ME.

DTR

SO, BRYCE AND I ALREADY DTRed AND IT WAS TRUE. HE LIKES ME AND WE ARE TOGETHER NOW LIKE BOYFRIEND GIRLFRIEND TOGETHER. I NEVER THOUGHT IN A MILLION YEARS, BRYCE WOULD LIKE ME. OMG THIS IS SO SHOCKING AT SAME TIME, I'VE GOT BUTTERFLIES IN ME STOMACH. THIS IS THE FEELING OF BEING IN LOVE.

THEN: SINGLE NOW: IN A RELATIONSHIP

WHY AM I WRITING ABOUT THIS? IT HAS BEEN 5 HOURS SINCE BRYCE TOLD ME THAT HE LOVED ME EVER SINCE WE WERE 10. I COULD ALWAYS PLAY THAT IN MY HEAD OVER AND OVER AND OVER AGAIN. IT FEELS GOOD TO HAVE SOMEONE LOVE YOU BACK.
OK, SO HERE IS THE STORY ABOUT THIS. IT WAS 7:30 IN THE MORNING AND  I WAS WALKING IN THE PARK FOR A MORNING EXERCISE. THEN I BUMPED INTO SOMEONE. WHEN I LOOKED UP, IT WAS BRYCE. BOTH OF US SAID AT THE SAME TIME SORRY. THEN, HE JUST SMILED AT ME. THEN, HE SAID HI JANE, WANNA WALK WITH ME?. AND I SAID SURE WHY NOT.
THEN WE TALKED ABOUT THINGS LIKE CATS, STARBUCKS, SCHOOL AND OUR CHILDHOOD. BUT ALL OF A SUDDEN HE ASKED WHO WAS MY FIRST CRUSH. BUT I WENT SILENT BUT I REALLY GIVE IN. I THOUGHT TO MYSELF MAYBE IT'S THE TIME NOW THAT HE NEEDS TO KNOW THAT HE IS MY ALL TIME CRUSH. I JUST ANSWERED "YOU. EVER SINCE UNTIL NOW." HE SAID REALLY ME TOO I LIKE LIKE EVER SINCE UNTIL NOW.
HE TOLD ME THAT I'M HIS FIRST LOVE. HE LOVED EVER SINCE I WORE MY FAVORITE PEACH DRESS ON THE FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL. HE SAID HE REALLY FELT CHEESY WHEN HE WROTE ME THE LETTER, FYI THE LETTER WAS WHEN I WAS IN 4TH GRADE. ANYWAY , THEN HE JUST KISSED ME AND I KISSED BACK. HE WALKED ME HOME AND HE KISSED ME AGAIN. THEN THAT'S IT. BUT WE DIDN'T DTR OR DEFINE THE RELATIONSHIP. I'M A BIT CONFUSED BUT AT THE SAME TIME HAPPY.

WEDDINGS, BOREDOM AND BACK FOR YOU

WE WENT TO A WEDDING, AND I WAS SO BORED. I WAS ONLY A GUEST BUT MY MOM WAS A SPONSOR. I WAS BORED I MEAN REALLY BORED.BUT GOOD THING THE FOOD WAS GOOD. BRYCE WAS THERE, BY THE WAY BRYCE IS MY LONG TIME CRUSH EVER SINCE 3RD GRADE. ANYWAY HE WAS JUST A GUEST THERE TOO. BRYCE AND I , WE TALK BUT SOMETIMES WE JUST GLANCE AT OTHER.

I'VE IN LOVE WITH HIM SINCE WE WERE KIDS. HE'S REALLY MY TYPE. BUT I'M NOT HIS TYPE. BECAUSE HE IS THE MOST POPULAR GUY IN THE WHOLE SCHOOL AND I'M JUST THE SCHOOL LAMEST GIRL. WHO WOULD LIKE SOMEONE WHO ISN'T GIRLY AND WHO IS WEIRD LIKE ME. EVERY GUY TEASES ME OR BULLY ME BUT BRYCE IS DIFFERENT. HE JUST TALKS TO ME AND SMILES AT ME. YOU KNOW NOBODY REALLY SMILES AT ME. HE IS REALLY SWEET, CUTE, SMART, SPORTY AND HE IS A GENTLEMAN.

I JUST WISH HE WOULD NOTICE ME AND LIKE ME BACK. BUT THAT'S NOT GOING TO HAPPEN, RIGHT. I'M JUST THE GIRL IN THE DARK CORNER.

LOST OUT OF MONEY, BROTHER AND MISERABLE...

MY MOM IS NOW WORRIED ABOUT MONEY. IT'S BECAUSE WE PAY TOO MUCH BILLS. WHY MY LIFE SHOULD BE LIKE THIS. I REALLY PROMISE TO MYSELF WHEN I FINISH SCHOOLING I WILL WORK HARD TO MAKE MONEY. THIS IS SHIT. I HATE PAYING STUFFS. ANYWAY LIFE IS UNFAIR. TOMORROW MY BROTHER WILL COME HOME. GREAT, I WILL HAVE TO BE PATIENT TO MY BROTHER.

YOU KNOW HE IS THE ELDEST BUT IT LOOKS LIKE I'M THE ELDEST. MY MOM ALWAYS TELLS ME TO BE PATIENT TO HIM BECAUSE HE IS ALWAYS TIRED. GOOD THING THIS IS HIS LAST YEAR IN COLLEGE. GOOD BYE CHOIRS.

WAIT, IF HE IS DONE WITH COLLEGE THEN HE WILL START WORKING, RIGHT. AND HE WILL BE EXTRA TIRED THAN BEFORE. MAN, MY LIFE IS MISERABLE.

SOMETIMES BEING A TEENAGER MAKES ME WANT TO VOMIT FOREVER.

IT'S TRUE, SOMETIMES BEING A TEENAGER SUCKS. WELL, THERE ARE GOOD THINGS LIKE MAKING YOURSELF KNOW YOURSELF OR HAVING YOUR FIRST MATE OR JUST DRINKING OR DRUGS OR SEX. BAD THINGS ARE REBELLION TO YOUR PARENTS, TRYING KILLING YOURSELF, BEING MORE SEXUAL, AND HATING YOURSELF. ANYWAY BEING A TEENAGER, I HAVE A LOT OF PROBLEMS. LIKE I NEED TO STAY IN SHAPE, HOMEWORK, TEACHERS, PARENTS, BROTHER, FRIENDS, GIRLS, BOYS, AND ME. I NEED TO IMPROVE MYSELF, LIKE I SHOULD HAVE SHAPE NOW OR I SHOULD KNOW MORE ABOUT MYSELF. SO IF SOME TEENAGERS MIGHT READ THIS YOU GET WHAT I MEAN.

I'M NOT A HAPPY TEEN...